8th November 2018
8th October 2011
It’s been a long time since I have written properly, and even longer since I wrote about the progress of Wonderland. The days and months have flown past in a blur of sunlight and seasons, and I haven’t stopped working once in all that time.
Read More› 2nd December 2010
For the first time ever, I’m awake to see the sunrise as I fly home from another draining business trip to China. The first glimmers of the dawn are breaking across the horizon, as I stare out from the darkness of my blanket cocoon.
Read More› 1st February 2010
‘Spirited Away’
The snow was heavy and pure. Soft flurries blew between us as Elbie stood still, her eyes closed, oblivious to what I could see. A magical landscape stretched before us, wild and white as a blanket of distant jewels spiralled down crowning her hair and hands.
Read More› 11th January 2010
Just to say I know I’ve been quiet, but I’m still here, slowly moving on. I’m getting better, and it seems I’m finding some balance again with my grief. I spent Christmas creating beautiful madness, we built the biggest prop I have ever used, as well as making costumes, researching and finally shooting 3 new character set ups for Wonderland.
Read More› 12th December 2009
I know that things have sounded very sad recently and I can’t hide it when I feel that way. This week has been one of the hardest I can remember since losing her last year. I’ve been off work and rattling around the house, trying to rest and pull myself together.
Read More› 7th December 2009
Nowadays I find myself hesitate before writing the truth down ….. but I can’t change what this is. Like taking the photos, this is me, my soul, my heart, the things I want to remember, come what may. Tonight, the highs of Wonderland being published are washed away by the loss of her yet again. It’s raining, it hasn’t stopped for what feels like days and my heart is drowning in this swirl of memories.
Read More› 8th November 2009
I’m meant to be writing about the project, I’m behind with the words and the pictures are taking so long to edit. There is so much to do and right now I’m sitting here just falling apart for the millionth time this month. She died one year ago tomorrow and I can’t pull myself together. I’m so tired, I’m sadder than I can remember, I have felt like this for so, so long, to the point where I feel I can’t even tell anyone any more
Read More› 1st March 2009
I messed up, I miss my mum,…. I started writing about China and then I stopped. This is me trying to make it up, trying to get back on track, and so as you can see the opening paragraph starts way back in December 08. Deep breath….. here I go, I’ve been gone a long time ……………….
22nd November 2008
She died on a Sunday; it was Remembrance Sunday, November 9th 2008.
She was 63, and it was only a handful of weeks since her birthday… a birthday I missed, the first one I had ever forgotten since I was born. My life has revolved around her survival for so long, that dates like birthdays had dissolved into the grey matter that was everyday life.
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